in the fade

  1. can’t sleep the anxiety will eat me

    3am is my new normal. Every night. 3am. Up. Sometimes I can go back to sleep after an hour. Most times I just stay up. There’s nothing bad going on that is keeping me up. I’m just..up.

    Tonight is different. 

    I know what’s keeping me up.

    I have a thing at 11am. A meeting of sorts. On the phone.

    Could be the greatest thing to ever happen to me.

    Could be.

    We’ll see.

    Meanwhile, I’ll just sit here on the couch staring into the dark, obsessing about it.

    Like I do.